Angry

B wakes up too early, I am not a morning person. She is an always person so we clash before 7:30 and sometimes, sometimes there is rage. She wants someone with her, I want to sleep, she shouts, I shout. It’s not the wake up we want. And it’s not particularly lady like. Aren’t we meant to flutter our eye lashes as we stretch our manicured finger nails into the morning sunshine?

There is a lot for women to be a little bit pissed off about these days, as well as a whole bundle of gratitude for progress of course. But we are in a little bit of a sticky situation where we have everything we have ever wanted all at once. I don’t think this was quite the plan but it’s work in progress. We are getting towards a place where not only do we get to work but our partners get to parent as well. We are getting to be more equal which is good for everyone. I think, I thought, until America voted against abortion. This is not just a block in the road this is closing the road and diverting it to who knows where. This is a step back for all women and democracy and an absolutely nightmare for those living in the shadow of this decision.

Many things make me angry about this but looking at the people who made this decision makes me livid. Not one of them will feel any consequence to this. I was amazed to see a woman vote in favour but then I looked her up, a member of a “church” who have many rules, one of which is your husband rules the house.

So there we have it, a huge backwards step in human rights, a team of “leaders” who have no place making these decisions and a whole lot on our plates.

I did find some hope though. I was late catching up on Glastonbury and decided to watch Billie Eilish. Thank the lord for Billie Eilish! Wearing a t shirt and shorts and looking amazing she blasted out her last song “happier than ever” expressing the true power of an angry woman. Singing with the whole of Glastonbury right there with her jumping around on the stage letting it all out.

So maybe I shouldn’t be so angry at having a little live wire in the house, she’s generally delightful and I have no business suppressing this rage, she needs to learn to control it; meaning temper it in some circumstances, but in others go for it, get really fucking angry because sometimes that’s exactly the right reaction to have.